3 years sober! 🥳
March 28, 2021 I dropped to my knees, for the first time ever & prayed that Allah relieve me of the symptoms I was experiencing after having only a taste of Tequila.
Let’s rewind back to 2020, we all know what 2020 was like but for me, being a health inspector during a global pandemic was a wake up call. I remember us working from home but still needing to go out in the field and having emergency management experience, working in the EOC (emergency operations center). I remember thinking in March 2020, like “okay, working from home will make “it” better.” What was the “it?” I guess feeling more fulfilled. Feeling valued. Not exactly sure.
It didn’t take long from me to realize that “it” still wasn’t fulfilling me. I remember constantly telling my kids, I really don’t like working anymore. Looking back I tell clients all the time that 2020 was an opportunity to
6 months after retiring from my government job, unsure of what life had in store for me but knowing the life I had been living was fading
…At the age of 16 I became an alcoholic. MD 20/20 is where I began. Having been raped by a “friend” in his car in front of my childhood home, alcohol became my coping mechanism for 22 years! That and over working myself. But I will save that part for another post.
To be 16 and physically violated…(wow…my ex boyfriend confirmed that my violator, did it to someone else…). To be 16 and physically violated so early in my sexual years it completely skews your perception of healthy sexuality. I never had a chance to build safety around sexual intimacy. I got through 22 years of sex by drinking. I can’t really recall having sex without alcohol. I remember being 18 an having the awareness that, “If you mentally prepare yourself that sex was going to happen, then they wont have to take it. Easier to give than resist and have it taken.” What a terrible existence to have
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